Topic: Can someone sum up why this crap is happening to me?...

I don't know....its horrible.
you can feel my ribs....i mean come on....its alittle disgusting to me....

WHat if the girl you love doesn't like skinny guys?....

Yea there are some girls that aren't aren't going to be that way. You can be skinny and attractive to someone in one way or another. You can be skinny and look nice.

Just a little thing I've learned in my 29 years of age and let me preface this with the fact that I wasn't the most confident or attractive guy in Middle and High School...most girls worth the flesh they wear don't give an 's' what a guy looks like, for the most part, and those that do aren't worth anyones time.

Girls care about how you carry yourself and what you do. I've dated more girls that liked me because I'm a writer more than the girls that dated me because of my looks. I just had that conversation with a friend today about this very topic.

For the most part, I recommend you see someone for the suicide stuff. That's pretty serious, but for everything else, it's a matter of growing comfortable in your own skin.

There's some that think a woman isn't attractive because she's really overwieght. If seen women this way that were attractive, so I know that's not true. There are some guys (probably girls too) who sre even attracted to someone partly because of that.
There are probably some woman that like skinny too. Not everyone feels the same.

Yeah. How do do you feel about your counciling? Does it seem to work at all?

Edit- One thing that Kim said that I definately agree with is the dog (or cat, or some other affectionate animal) Can be good to be around. They don't pick on you. Some can be very affectionate and petting them can actually make you feel good. It's not a cure, but could help you deal and make you feel a little better. They actually use this type of thing in prisons/ maybe hospitals. probably others. must be something to it.
I've been depressed before, heck I still get depressed at times. I don't own a pet now. But I would talk to this one guy when he was out with his dog. One day I was across the street from them,(I didn't wan't to stop that day) And the dog kept looking at at me, as I was walking. He was like moving his head atound to look at me. So I finally came over cause it really seemed that he wanted to see me. That made me feel good.*

I get slagged off constantly because I'm "Emo". I get extremely angry and or emotional when people slag me off. Either I stick head phones in and turn up on full, I go home and cry sometimes cause things get so shit. (I know it's pathetic and I shouldn't but it helps let things out.) My girlfriend says she doesn't think any less of me. Anyway if I don't cry or do headphones I'll shout back at them. At certain points I think sod it, come over here and slag me off. I don't really ahve muscles or very high self esteem due to constant slagging off and a number of medical conditions. I also get picked on for not smoking/drinking. Okay I drink sometimes but not heavily. The result is either they shout names at me, throw things at me or spit at me.

Hope things work out for you. BTW I are 16 goin on 17 in October.

If you kill yourself because other people don't like you, then they win. Why not stick around and annoy the hell out of them? I was depressed when I was in high school as well. Now I am 31, and I am glad to be out of the whole thing. High School is horrible, life is worth living, so just hang in there.

Very good advice, but one thing it seems a lot of people don't know is that just because a dog has poodle in it, doesn't mean it is non-allergenic.

Anyway, a anorexia can also be caused by stress too, which seems very likely in your case. It happened to my fiance for a while when she was younger. Have you ever seen the movie Carrie? I would recommend it to you as it may help you understand what is going on a little bit better, I'll bet a little paranormal, but still. But if you're not old enough, or don't like a lot of violence, don't bother watching it just cuz I said so. What grade are you in, it would help me judge better advice for you. If it's public school, it doesn't get a whole lot better, but after high school, you get a chance to start all over again, and everyone is starting over again in college/university. Most people don't know anyone in the area and would love a friend. It does get better, but kids, when they are still immature, are extremely mean, and adults can be the same. I'm going to stop rambling on now, and post again some other time.
I can send you a link to watch all the parts of Carrie if you're interested. It's from the 70's so it's not as violent and uber gore as newer movie, but it was considered extremely scary back then, I don't think as scary as the exorcist however. It's really not scary at all, but I'm just warning you that it's 18+ Mild nudity, I believe, in one scene early in the movie; entirely relevant however.
Ok I'm done
P.S. If you want more about my fiance, I might make her join and post whatever she wants.

I'll be honest....i am looking for a gilr who doesn't want to use me for money,house,looks. im looking for a girl who loves me as much as id love her.

Here in Ireland..we have a very low population and around my area it is extremely hard to find any girl whos honest. they just look for the sexiest guys y'know?

Also yeah the counselling is good and my counseller said she is gonna help me through this
I told i would never cut myself again but..i really was about to after what happened today on the school trip

you can say im a really sensitive and emotional wreck.

If you were anorexic, you would see your ribcage, and still think you were fat. So good news, you probably just have a speedy metabolism. Look at it this way, you won't be like a lot of my friends and start getting a beer gut right out of college. High school's rough, and it seems rougher for you than most. I know in my county, there were people who were able to transfer schools in the county, because of similar issues. Would that be a possibility? You may want to speak with a guidance counselor about that. It could give you a chance to start fresh and escape the problems that seem to plague you there.

Being suicidal though, you probably should see a counselor. If you get put on meds, also be aware, that not every formula works for everyone, and it may get worse before it gets better as different drugs effect people's chemistry differently. Nothing on this board can substitute for real help, but things will improve eventually. When things get really bad, do remember that high school is temporary. Make yourself a countdown to graduation, then you can get a job, and move the hell away. Hopefully, getting out of a fairly toxic environment will make it easier to work on other things.

Best of luck to you.

PS: The dating situation improves VASTLY after HS. I didn't date at all until after I graduated, and I'm glad I didn't. It was a self-esteem downer for me at the time though.

Another trick, if people make fun of you, just agree jokingly. If they're like, "Gosh, are you anorexic, you skinny bitch" Be like "Yeah, but the cafeteria food made me that way." Or something. If you agree jokingly, and they're expecting you to get upset, it really takes the wind out of their sails. What can they say to that? They'll either laugh too, or mumble something about how you're a loser and walk away with their tails between their legs. If they keep trying, just keep being light and jokey, and they'll eventually give up. It may take a while, but eventually, they'll know they can't crack you. It also shows that you can roll with the punches, and you're a chill guy. Others will see that, and probably think you'd be fun to hang out with.

Also i am 17 years old so don't worry about the 18+ rating mate
I'll definitly have a look into the film.

(i must say this does make me feel better. i seriously appriciate this guys )

What happened on the school trip?
Ya don't have to share though.

Also women who are only looking for the sexiest guys might not be lookin for love. I can say though, that if you do find a girl who does want to be with you and does love you it is a really big confidence boost and theres someone there for you when you feel really really shoddy.

I'm not sure that recommending a movie about a girl who is bullied at school and oppressed by her parents so she kills all her classmates, her mother, and herself to a suicidal guy who's bullied at school and oppressed by his parents is a very good idea.

@Sean: Just got done editing my last post to you. ^If you wan't to look,

The school trip was alittle ok-ish.
it started off pretty good but..the ending was just terrible.
Basically the weather was so hot so i took my jumper off and was left wearing a shirt revealing my Arms. My arms are literally....just....i don't know what to say...they are skinny and very small.
The guys started to laugh at me and started to come over to me and you know feel my arms to see if i have any muscles(Are they gay?...lol jk jk but umm..it was weird)
And yes ill admit...i ain't got any muscles. i dont PLAN to get any. I dont need to unless they start bullying me Physically which they dont.

They make me feel like im the dumbest,ugliest guy in the world.

I'd be too self conscious (Spelt right? |:3) to take my shirt off in public. I'd just put up with the heat or find shade.

bout the girls thing, they are most definitely not the most important part of your life in high school. i met a girl a couple years ago when i was in high school, and fell in love and we have been dating ever since, and hope to get married in a few years. but that rarely happens, and was never my focus in school. by the way, you may also like to know that since ninth grade, my nickname to all my friends/classmates/family/anybody who knows me has been "Walrusman" for my "walrus-shaped body". now, granted, that was all started in good form, and i rather like the nickname myself, and am not offended (though i would say that in general, i, too, am a very sensitive fellow). but still, it does go to show that i am more than a bit on the chubby side. the general conception is that girls don't like that either. my girlfriend, however, actually finds it attractive (i agree... i find it strange... but i'm not compaining ). i also had a friend growing up who all through jr. high and high school never even had a girl like him, let alone go out with him. he, too, was excessively skinng. you could see his ribcage. if he took his shirt off, he could touch his shoulder blades together. his chest poked out in a kind of funny shape so much so, in fact, that you could see the indent of his sternum. very skinny, almost emaciated guy. but he ate. alot. just had a super-human metabloism. and still does. he is in college now, and has a very attractive girlfriend who is committed to him for him, and not his money (and definitely not his looks, if you ask me ;D ), but it seems that she loves him for who he is, despite his quirks (he loves games, too) and his thin body. so all that to say girls are not all the same. they all have different tastes, just like they have different looks and different personalities. and your life doesn't just stop when you graduate high school. there's so much more to it, beyond high school, and beyond college, even. i'm sure you won't be stuck in that same place forever if you don't want to be, and even if you are, there will be girls who appreciate YOU. you just have to trust that it will work out that way and stick it through. but again, girls shouldn't be your priority now, anyway.

Tokengirl gave you alot of good info. I Especially think that part about being able to comeback in a joking way. Even if they ARE trying to be mean. Heck, they might even start to think more possitively about you (and if they don't s**w them) plenty of other people out there who are nice at heart and would thinkbthat you're a cool person. By the way...having lots of friends is not important, good friends are. You may only have so many good "true" friends throughout your life, by the way. Remember that. (this doesn't just applybto you)

School shootings are blamed on the bullied victim.
Ok sure...they didn't have to take it that FAR but then again....those idiot bullies have no common sense. The bullies got themselves killed and their class-mates.
This is called REVENGE. I have felt this anger many times over the months.
I do wish to kill the bullies. I won't but i do wish to but i myself know its wrong.
The bullies think im not capatble of killing someone?
ANYONE can pick a gun up and shoot it.

That film may actually tell me some things on why i feel this way.

Everytime someone insults me or makes a tiny insult i get angry easily. i throw tables around and go into...i can't say what it is. i basically turn into a monster.
I dont even think when im angry. i almost threw the table at my cousin when i was trying to get the bully.

I think i should just be put down before it gets out of hand.
I wish i was normal.

About the Carrie film.
Was it made in 2002 or was it the 1970's version.

Just want to know so i can get this right lol