Topic: A Sincere Apology to You All

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Lately, I've been thinking over my actions on NintendoLife (so far), and I have decided that I really should've gone slower.
You probably have noticed by now that I've been partaking in other peoples' threads and comments instead of starting my own. There's a reason for that; I feel guilty. When I first made my account two weeks ago, I was so amazed, there was so much that I wanted to talk about and share. But, there's where I made my first mistake, constant uploading of threads. Usually when trying something new (and isn't that part of what's life about?), I usually take it slow and steady ('cause that combo wins the race). Ironically, I went way overboard, posting about 29 topics the first three/four days. I have since deleted a few topics that I really dislike or just wasn't happy about, so now I will have made 23 topics, today!
The reason I felt guilty was because certain comments from people made me feel like I was a plague. Some even said that users like me were the reason for driving people away from this site. That was never my intention in the first place. If wanted to anger, or intimidate, or annoy, or inadvertently offend someone, I would have. But I don't do it, 'cause it's not nice; I would rather be nice and considerate towards people than feel like Public Enemy Number One (which is how I felt sometimes) and just backlash everything. Some even said I was a spammer: lately, I've been learning about how a user can be safe and sound and what we should not do. I never meant to spam, although there were times when I felt like I was spamming people (sometimes I regret my rash actions, but at least I didn't send 10,000 messages a day).
Another thing I want to talk about is first impressions. Good first impressions are hard to make, but lasting ones are even harder to fulfill. When I meet someone (in person or in NL), I want to be polite as possible. Though I feel that everyone is against me now. No!! Sometimes I feel that the world is after me (and that is not a good picture), but other times I feel very safe and glad there are people who care. Everyone that I have encountered here, especially ones that said negative things about me, have made a good impression on me. I say that because, you are all very honest, especially when some of you probably can't stand being in the same thread as me. That's okay; I would rather someone be honest with me than to make up a lie just to impress me. The few users that welcomed me to the site were very nice, and I totally appreciated it. In fact, some negative comments towards me I feel were totally deserving [to me].
I also want to bring up the subjects of moderation and acceptance. There was this one topic that I used to have up, before I deleted it (because back then I was careless to find out why it got locked), where Corbie said these words that I'll always remember: "You don't have to leave. Just learn a little moderation. ". I'll admit that at first I didn't know what moderation meant, but when I looked it up on my Franklin dictionary, the meaning just became simple to me (although I'm sure being a moderator has nothing to do with it, right?). That's what I'm practicing now, limitations after limitations. I've decided to stay, but I won't find myself uploading that many topics for a long time (it's why certain users don't appreciate me in the first place). I'll find myself uploading a topic or two at a time, whether it be one day, the next day, or a week or month from now. You see, I can upload as many as a thousand topics, and still not have done it all. I am that interested in sharing my topics. Another thing is acceptance; so some of you guys may say something nice or mean to me, or might never talk to me again. I don't mind, because instead of fighting, I'll embrace it all. It's gonna take a lot to offend me, so what I try to do is smile all the time. Why be so sorrowful and depressed, when you can be happy?
I suppose by now I may have learned all my responsibilities as a user. I'd rather be lenient and considerate to someone, than to be ruthless and heartless. The latter is how I at first felt certain users were towards, but that all passed. To put it bluntly, I'm so sorry to all of you. I never meant to make you feel negatively towards me, it was my aspiration to send as many topics as possible. I was new, well, technically I still am, and I feel certain users have not given me a chance. That's all I ask of you: another chance; because I was foolish, and a tad inexperienced with forums. Before you say anything, consider this: one day, a new user will come, filled with curiosity and lightheartedness, that may make the same mistake I have. I do not want that to happen; if it does, it's all my fault.
I have to decided to make amends