Super Smash Bros. Melee Player Abdulaziz "Hax$" Al-Yami Has Died

Way too young to die. May he rest in peace.

Rest in peace. 😔

seems like a great dude, so sorry to the family. rest in peace

Way too young to leave this world. May he rest in peace.

That Hungrybox anecdote is especially heart wrenching. Absolutely tragic. Rest in peace to Hax.

That’s so young and I feel so sorry for his family, friends, and fans.

The end of the article mentions a suicide attempt. For anyone ever struggling, please remember that life is full of ups and downs. Life is always worth living and will always get better. Stay strong everyone.

What?

How did this happen? I haven't been keeping up with major Smash players like Hax in a while, but how did he end up passing away so unexpectedly if it didn't mention he had any affliction like cancer or anything? Was it because he tried taking his own life at one point?

Rest in peace to a legend.

Sad, but at least he left in peace. Godspeed, brother 🫡

Wishing the best to his family and all who knew him.
RIP

It's absolutely awful when anyone dies this young. RIP.

@russell-marlow Its a long story that combines both physical and mental health issues. I can recommend googling the following: "What's the deal with Hax? What's his story?"

RIP and wishing the best for his family.

30, man that is young 😔. May he rest in peace. Condolences to the family.

RIP Hax$. Way too young.

I hope most Melee TOs will learn their lesson after this. Hax$ was treated unfairly for far too long.

I'm don't follow competitive gaming, so I'm not familiar with this individual, but this is immensely sad to hear.

He's not the only Smash player to attempt suicide, but fortunately ZeRo's attempt failed as well. He's now in the best physical and mental shape of his life, and I'm so happy to see his personal growth.

As @Altaria_97 said, things can and will get better. I know that sounds cliché, but I can attest that this is indeed true. I never seriously considered self-harm, mostly due to my religious beliefs and never wanting to put my family through that kind of hurt. But I did experience bouts of suicidal ideation. I didn't want to die, but I didn't want to be alive, either. Every day felt like a waking nightmare, living with undiagnosed OCD and intrusive thoughts.

I spent about a year in virtual therapy with an OCD specialist during the pandemic and had ups and downs in recovery. When I eventually hit a brick wall and wasn't getting any better, I reluctantly took medication, despite being scared of potential side effects. Taking SSRI was a life-changer, and I can honestly say the struggles I used to go through feel mostly like a distant memory. These past three years are the happiest I've been in a long time, after probably about 8 years of what felt like a living hell.

I used to experience maybe one day of relief every two weeks, and those two weeks were like a nightmare. Now, the opposite is true; I have the occasional bad day, which is just a natural part of life, but I'd say 90% of the time I have good days. And the bad days aren't nearly as bad as they used to be.

Help is available. Don't be afraid to reach out and open up to a credible therapist. Unless you explicitly tell them you have a plan to hurt somebody, it is illegal for them to relay the information you confide in them to ANYONE. Be aware of red flags when finding a therapist, though--every therapist's end goal should be for you to eventually no longer need their services. If your start feeling like you can't cope without your therapist, something is wrong; they shouldn't become a crutch, and they might be making you dependent so they can keep taking your money.

You may feel worthless now, but I promise that you would be even more worthless if you were dead. You think your family will be better off without you? Consider the funeral expenses, the emotional trauma of friends and parents and kids and other loved ones. Not to mention the lifelong scarring of whoever finds you.

But as long as there is breath in your lungs, you have an opportunity to do good things in this world. When you get better, you'll be able to help so many other people overcome their own struggles with depression and anxiety. You can be a volunteer, you can donate to charity--there's lots of worthwhile things you can do while you're alive.

You aren't worthless. And regardless of what today's cancel culture society will teach you, I believe that no human being is beyond redemption. The mistakes you've made in the past are irrelevant if you're genuinely striving to be a better person. Forgive yourself.

Religion can be a great source of comfort; if not for my Christian faith, I might not be here. But if you need to seek worldly help from a mental health professional, that doesn't mean your faith is weak. Take advantage of all the opportunities God gives you--including seeking medicinal aid.

Much love. God bless. ❤️

30 is way too young to leave this world.

Much love to his family and loved ones; it cannot be easy.

Rest in peace, Smash bro... rest in peace. We'll keep the fight going. ✊🏽

Truly tragic. My condolences to his friends and family.

@Not_Soos Maybe don't bring ZeRo into the conversation. Unlike Hax, his reasons for getting ousted in the community involved inappropriate conversations with a minor. It's actually gross that you would compare Hax to him.

@Not_Soos I didn’t pay for this feels trip haha

For real, this is a beautiful story and message. Thanks for sharing and I can attest to most things said. I won’t go into detail but I went through a really rough patch for a few years. Now I’m about to be 28 and I’m the happiest I’ve been since high school. Things like time, faith, discipline, exercise, health, and changing things in my life really helped get me to where am at physically and mentally. I hope you keep killing it and everyone here does as well. Everyone deserves a happy and fun life.

Rest in peace and condolences to the family.